Seize the day.

Life: a bunch of moments...some hate it because not always they have what they want, others love it because they know tomorrow may never come; I...love it because not always I had happy moments and not always I received what I asked for or wanted and because I had hard moments from which I have learned; so, all we really need to do is just love and enjoy every moment either sad or happy because in the end this is what really matters; so live your life at the fullest and have no regrets.

Chapter 7 - The truth opens new times

The phone was ringing:

- Hello?!

- Hey, Sarah!

- Hey, Nathan. How're you? I was waiting you to...

- Uhm...listen...I want to talk to you.

- Ok. I'll be at your place in 15 minutes.

- Ok. See you there then.

She was thinking at what Nathan wanted to talk about.

'Maybe he wants to tell me how he feels...that he likes me. Aww...it's so cute. Now he'll tell me he wants to be with me.'

Sarah finally arrived at his place.

- Nathan?! Where are you? Come on...I don' feel like playing any game right now. Nathan?!

She heard something. It was someone talking.

- Listen...I know how you feel but you have to know that I want to move on. I know we have history but...yes, I feel the same too that's why I want to change...You hurt me and it wasn't easy for me. Remember that I'm what I am now because of you. Ohh come on....of course I still love you but...

In that moment Sarah felt like the sky was falling over her and she couldn't breathe anymore. She dropped her phone and she started to run.

- Ohh my...Sarah?! Sarah, please stop!

- Leave me alone.

- Please...

- How could you? You're an asshole. I hate you!

- I don't think you feel like this.

- No?! You're disgusting...I don't want to see you anymore.

- At least let me explain you. Give me a chance.

- What could you explain me? That you were playing with me? That you were using me to make her jealous? Did it worked?

- I wasn't using you. I could never use you for something like this. You have to trust me.

- Trust you? And why I should do this? Who are you to trust you?

- You love me and that's why.

- Yeah...shame on me that I trusted you even if I loved you. You can't be trusted. Trust must be earned and you did nothing to earn it.

And she left. After a few days of crying she said to her:

'Ohh come on, Sarah! No one deserves your tears and the one who does, won't make you cry. So get your ass out of your room and start living your life again. There are a billion boys out there...you don't have to cry because an idiot is too stupid to know that.'

- Sarah, can you please come a little? her mother was trying to make her feel better.

- Mom, no. I'm not hungry. Maybe later.

- No, I'm not asking you to eat. Just come and see.

- Ok. I'll be down in 5 minutes.

She was dressing and thinking that she must put a smile on her face so people could think that she is ok now. She moved on.

- Yeah, tell me. mom. What can I do for you?

- Can you come closer? I want to show you something!

- Of course. What....Jerry?! Oh my God. Is that you?

- Yeah. I'm back now...at least for a while.

- Wow! and she ran to hug him. She was so happy that her old friend was back and now she has a shoulder to cry on and someone who could make her feel alive again.

- I've heard that here has happened a lot of things. Good ones...and bad ones. Do you want to talk now or after we take a city tour?

- Yeah...I have so much to tell you but first let's go out. I need fresh air and see new faces...new people.

- That's my girl! Let's go to conquer the world.

- Wow. Those are big words!

Chapter 6 - When reality interferes with dreams

Next day at school Sarah was the happiest girl in the whole world because she spent a night with her lover. Everyone was her friend in that day and she had no enemies. But this until the night came.

- Hello! Sarah?

- Uhm…yes. Sarah here. Who’s there?

- I’m sorry. I’m from the Central Hospital and we have to tell you something.

- Yes, sure. About what? About the analysis from the last week?

- No. About your mother.

- What?! What happened to her? Is she ok?

- She had a car accident and she…

- …

- Hello?! Sarah, are you there?

Sarah was on way to hospital. She was thinking at so many things and she didn’t saw that a car was coming in front of her and that she was on the wrong way. She tried to avoid to have a car accident…and she struck a tree. People near her asked one another if she’s ok. “Yes, of course I’m ok. I’m fine. I’m perfect. My mom is in hospital because she had a car accident and what am I doing here?”

- Someone to call an ambulance. She’s bleeding.

“What?! No, I’m fine. Can’t you see that I’m ok?”

The ambulance was coming and the doctor asked what happened.

- She was trying to avoid colliding with the other car and she ended here.

- Ok. Sue, take her and go to the Central Hospital.

“My mom…I’ll see my mom. Is she ok?”

- Come on. Call dr. Adams to come because we need him in the operating room. Quick.

“Hey. What’s going on? What happened with my mom? She’s ok? Why are you operating her? I feel like moving…I can’t see anything. I’m the one that….”

- Quick. Put her the perfusion and the anesthesia, the doctors were talking.

Few hours later she was in her room. Opening her eyes she saw her mother and Nathan too. She didn’t remember anything.

- Hey baby. How this happened? said her mom.

- ….

- I know baby. Everything will be ok. Try to sleep now. Nathan, I’m going to ask the doctor something. Please stay here and take care of her.

- Of course.

Her mother left the room.

- Sarah, I feel guilty about this. Why weren’t you careful when you drive? I need to tell you something very important. Something that I can’t say you face to face. Now that you’re sleeping I can tell you. I love you Sarah. I love you from the first day I saw you. You’re always in my mind and you don’t know how I feel now. If something happens to you I couldn’t bear.

“Why I feel like I’m going? It’s so dark but I can see a light. I’ll go there; maybe I’ll find the way to get out of here.”

- Sarah?!

“This voice sounds familiar. Is…”

- Hey, Sarah. Wake up. Nathan's here.

- What?! She was so scared and she was searching if she’s ok.

- Hey, what are you doing?

- I had a car accident and I…

- No, you had a dream. You’re ok. Now go and see Nathan.

Chapter 5 - The surprise

Days were passing and they have become closely friends. The winter was near and Sarah was planning something.

“I should throw a party”, said Sarah. “Something that he’ll never forget. Something unforgetable.”

While she was making the preparations for the party she received a message: “Meet you in 10 minutes, down.” It wasn’t signed so she didn’t know from who was that message. She dressed and get out to see who wants to meet her. As usual, she was very punctual. I can’t say the same thing about the person who called her out.

- Hello?! Is anybody there?!

- Turn easy to the left.

- What…

- Easy I said.

- Who are you? Why should I listen to you?

- Do what I told you to do and don’t ask anything.

- Why should I do this? Who are you? Come out in light to see you.

- Not now. Good. Now is the moment for you to take 2 steps.

- Huh!?

- 2 steps I said.

- What an idiot. He asked me to came out and what he’s doing?! He wants me to take 2 steps. How stupid!

- I heard that!

- Oh, really? I was worried that you didn’t.

- Ha, ha. Very funny.

- Ok. That’s enough. I’ll go because it’s cold outside and I don’t want to play games anymore.

- Wait.

And in the same time a big and colorful light was turned on. In front of her was a table with a red rose in the middle. On the left side was a piano. She was amazed by the view.

“I've never seen you looking so lovely as you did tonight
I've never seen you shine so bright
I've never seen so many men ask you if you wanted to dance” He was singing „Lady in red”

- Nathan, you are...! How beautiful is everything. Thank you for the song. It’s amazing.

- Yes. I know. You welcome. So...do you like it?

- If I like it!? I love it.

- Good. That’s what I wanted to hear.Would you mind if I’ll ask you to dance?

- Uhm...I guess not.

- Fine. Let’s dance then.

Dancing with him was a wish that she never ever thought that could be realized. But a dream became true that night. And there were more.

- Now I think it’s the time to eat something, don’t you agree? said Nathan.

- Uhm..yeah. Sure.

But this was the only thing that Sarah wanted: to stay with him all night long. She didn’t want anything more than him.

- Uhm...you’re not thinking to eat something? Your parents will be worried that I didn’t gave you something to eat.

- Ha, ha. Funny boy.

So the night turned into something special for her. Thinking to make something to surprise Nathan, she was surprised by him instead.

Chapter 4 - The meeting

Sarah was feeling awful about Marian and what she did but in the same time she was thinking what to do with “blue eyes”. Meantime, she found out that “blue eyes” broke up with her girlfriend and she thought that there was a possibility for her. She tried different things but in the end she found a classmate of “blue eyes” and decided to talk to him.

- Hi! You know, I have a cousin that likes very much a classmate of you and I want to do something for her, said Sarah.

- Uhm…Ok. First, who are you?

- I’m Antonia. I have a friend that study at your high shool.

- Ok. And how she met my classmate?

- Uhm…I don’t know but what I know is that she loves him very much.

- Ok. You know that he broke up with his girlfriend one week ago and that he’s hurt and vulnerable.

- Yes. I know.

- You know?!

- Yes, I know because I…I mean, she told me.

- Ohhh…ok. Then I’ll give you his email.

- Ok. Thank you very much. You made my wish come true.

- Uhm…what?!

- Nothing. I understand.

- Ok.

That day was the most beautiful day from her life. She write him an email telling him what happened.

To: darkangel@hotmail.com

From: sensibletoyou@gmail.com

Hi! I’m Sarah. I’m a school mate of you. I found your email through a change of lists. Nice to meet you.

She received an email from him:

To: sensibletoyou@gmail.com

From: darkangel@hotmail.com

Hi! Nice to meet you too. But…why? I mean why you kept my email and why you want to talk with me?

They were talking in this way and in a few days they have become friends. All was good. One day at school Sarah was listening to music at her headphones and was lost in nowhere. She was dreaming: a prince coming to her with a white horse.

- Hi, Sarah!

- …

- Sarah?!

- ….what?

- I said “Hi!”…

- Ohh….I’m sorry. I’m really sorry.

- It’s ok. Tell me, where were you?

- Uhm…What? When?

- Now!?

She was blushing and Nathan ( the name of “blue eyes” ) figured out what she was thinking.

- Ok. Listen, I have to go now but I’ll call you later, ok?

- …..

- Sarah?! Stop dreaming.

- Oh….Ok. Sorry. I’ll wait for you to call me. Bye.

“Wow… He is very beautiful. I think that I fall in love again…He’s much more beautiful now since we’re friends.”

Old, but cute

An old song that has given me a lot of memories and which I love very much

Chapter 3 - The break

Days were passing and she thought that she forgot him. At least she tried. Marian was very sweet and careful with her. Everyday was by her side trying to do his best so that Sarah could be satisfied. Soon will be the birthday of Sarah and he was thinking what to buy for her. Finally he bought something and went to her:

- Hi, Sarah! Happy birthday! and he kissed her. She tried to avoid him because she didn’t want to make him suffer.

- Ohh..hi! and thanks. It’s a beautiful rose but you shouldn’t bother.

- Uhm…you don’t like it…

She saw the grimace on his face and she tried to do things well.

- Look, I really like your gift. I love it. It’s very beautiful and it means a lot for me. You don’t receive a beautiful red rose daily so it’s nice.

- Uhm…yeah. Now you try to make me feel good but you know, it only makes me feel awful.

- Sorry. It wasn’t my intention. And then she kissed him. After that, Marian started to feel good and to show some happiness on his face.

Next day at school Sarah was with her friends on the school hall, talking. Lucy saw “blue eyes” but in the same time she saw that Marian was coming to Sarah and she didn’t know how to make Sarah to see “blue eyes”. It was something instant that Lucy said:

- Hey, Sarah. Look, that neon is broken. It doesn’t work.

- Uhm…what?!

- The neon. Doesn’t work.

- Ha ha. And why should I care?

- Just look. But quick.

In that moment Marian hugged her and because she couldn’t see the neon she had to turn and watch. But when she rolled she saw “blue eyes” and she figured out why Lucy told her about the neon. She was blushing and Marian asked her what happened.

- Uhm…nothing. Do you want to go somewhere with me?

- Yes. Of course. Where?

She didn’t hear what Marian said because she was thinking at “blue eyes” and she was trying to find him. When she finally found him she started to stare at him. Marian tried to ask her different things but her mind was far away. He finally realized that something wasn’t right but he ignored it.

- Sarah!? Come on, let’s go.

- Uhm…OK. Let’s go. She hardly moved away from “blue eyes” but she did it.

Marian observed that their relation has changed. He tried to speak with Sarah but she didn’t came to school few days. He also tried to call her but she didn’t answered. After a week of absence Sarah returned to school and then she talked with Marian.

- Marian, listen. I have something to tell you.

- Of course, baby. I want to talk to you too about a few things.

- Ok. Uhm…let’s go somewhere where we won’t be disturbed.

- Sure. I know the right place.

In their way both of them were thinking how to start and how to tell what they want without making the other feel uncomfortable.

- Ok. That’s the place.

It was a beautiful restaurant where they went. The atmosphere was so romantic; on the table were candles and in the middle was a red rose.

- Ok. Do you like here?

- Uhm…Yes. It’s a nice place. But I need to talk with you.

- Yes. Of course. But wait a sec to order something.

- No. I can’t wait.

- Ohhh…Ok. Then start.

- Look. About our relation…

- About this I want to talk too.

- Then say first.

- No. It’s ok. I’ll wait.

- Ok. Listen…I think that what we have isn’t a relation. It was in a hurry and honestly I don’t feel anything for you. I love someone else and I can’t be with you. It’s not fair for you to be with me and it’s not fair for me neither to think on someone else while I’m with you. So it’s better if we break and we try to be friends because honestly, none of us feel something like love, real love for the other. Am I right?

- …

- Marian!?

- Uhm…yes. I think you’re right.

- Ok. Now that all it’s over, tell me what you wanted to tell me.

- Uhm…no. Nothing. It was stupid of me to think about it.

And in that moment he walked away and he disappeared.